bLank~

~ I've been thinking lately..
 what i wanna do for my future. .
. .well. .of cause i wanna have my own degree. .
. .i wanna continue my studies. .in hospitality. .
. .but as a supervisor at Taska. .i need to take care of the taska also. .
. .i think. .after this year. .n give a supervise to the other baby-sitter. .i think. .its okey for me to leave the job for them in about 3years?. .just let them follow the KAAK course. .then they understand, ,
its not long enough 3 years. .just. .a blink of time. .then i finish. .n i continued to worked there. .as long as i already finish my study. .n have a degree. .it okey to work at taska. .as long as it "punca rezki yang halal". .
that's what i've been thinking lately. .
. .hurm. .

istikharah~ . .the right solution. .
need the best answer for myself. .

~i hate that u make me love you~

~ it's true. .its hurt. .its frustrating. .its something that make me can't stand it anymore, ,i don't know if you understand what am i saying before, but it seems like. .U DOESN'T UNDERSTAND IT AT ALL!!. .whatever la. .whateva u wanna do. .its up to u. .

~orang bilang "xkemana jua, kalo ada jodoh. ." e2 urang bilang. .tapi kalo sdh berusaha tuk mendapatkan jodoh yang baik. .tapi seolah-olah tidak menghiraukan usaha orang tu. lebih baik berkata awal-awal. .Jangan terikat dengan kata-katamu  ::aku bertanggungjawab keatasmu:: Man! we are not married yet oke! that one thing for sure. .im still under my parents responsibilities. .dont worry. .i'll be fine if im not going to marry you. .
~and about the poligami. .of coz i said i will accept if you are going to have the poligami. .but we are not married yet. .so why so soon searching for my "MADU??". .why you did not make them your first wife??!! . .stupid! fooL!! Idiot!! thats the thing i wanna say if i were some kind of girl that talk nonsense. .but me not like that. .just think wise wahai anak muda. .. .

~~wahai imam muda, .fikirlah sejenak. .adakah anda mampu untuk menanggung satu tanggungjawab yang besar. .memimpin sebuah bahtera rumah tangga. .adakah anda sudah bersedia??. .jangan fikir ikut nafsu. .fikir ikut akal yang Allah dah bagi tu. .betapa besarnya tanggungjawab. .adakah anda sudah berumah tangga hingga anda sudah terfikir untuk berpoligami?. .niatmu baik wahai imam muda. .tapi fikir lah dahulu. .rasanya. .anda belum bersedia lagi untuk menuju ke alam itu. .kita tangguhkan saja hubungan jarak jauh ini. . beristikharah lah .minta petunjuk dari-Nya. .adakah benar .diri ini bakal mendampingimu??. .kita berserah kepadaNya 100%. .i'm tired already,((banyak makan dalam)~